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Today is a sunny day. The clouds are white, the sky is blue, and the green is bright all around. There is some fresh wind coming along, and the sun shining above us with its warm heat. Ideally, I would be writing this on a Saturday, but it’s a Thursday. And it’s 12:49 PM as well, sitting in the dining room, my family members asking me if I would like a coffee, and replying no to them—politely, of course. The topic of the today, you may ask, is how to finish school by tomorrow (I'm joking). No, the topic of today is attached to my book. The one I’m writing. I have a looooong plan coming up ahead, and it has quite a couple of big, short, and slow steps. Since I don’t have a proper big publishing company at all, or company behind me, I will be doing everything by myself—at least try to. I will be focusing and pouring all I have into this project of mine. I would like to say it’s something different and new, not like the modernity of other books we all have read in today’s time. Or even the old books we all love and hate both at the same time. I am no J.R.R. Tolkien, J.K. Rowling, Jane Austen, Andrzej Sapkowski, George R. R. Martin, or any of the big authors I admire at all. Do I have to be like them? Absolutely not.

I’m just a girl who wishes to pour the world she has inside of her head onto paper. Willing to do anything I can to get this book out, even if I have the most littlest of audiences, I am grateful for all the support. I can’t even start to describe what I’m writing, since this art sometimes comes as “an indescribable art of putting our emotions and thoughts onto a sheet of paper that we keep on expanding.” And to be honest, I do not mind that. This is the art of beautiful writing. I sometimes think I’m a little bit of a perfectionist when it comes to writing. Since I see many authors, writers, poets, essayists, and many more, I read their works and ask myself, “Is it possible that my writing is not as good as theirs?” That tiny self-doubt comes in and threatens to eat me whole sometimes, but again I regain ground by saying, “No, everyone has their own way of uniquely writing their pieces of masterful works. I am one of them.”

My book is set in a fantasy land/world where there are kingdoms, clans, tribes, cities, and villages. It’s a mix between swords, bow and arrows, magic, runes, and medieval times—I suppose, in my version of it. I am still deciding the books, although I have a lengthy few on the list of the world I am building, wanting to expand it as much as possible, yet not give out as much information—for as the reader needs to discover it first before any additional information is given. There is time in this world. There are humans, beasts, and mystical creatures in it too. There are nobles, royals, peasants, villagers, relics, guards, and farmers. There are also beautiful landscapes, places, and architecture too. Soaring skies, fallen tribes, secrets, and quite a lot of history, may I add as well. I try to not overthink what I write and try to make sense of it. I decided using outlines, lists, or something like that hinders—at least my creative process—that I freeze and get very frustrated, so I stopped with outlines and just let my fingers type as much as I can until my brain can work no more.

Of course, I have names, quotes, history, sketched places, and some mood boards laid out, as well as symbols and languages—things that spark the flame of writing. I also stopped hearing writing advice, author podcasts, and things of that sort of nature since it also hindered my writing. I just either sit on my computer and play music, write in silence, or write on a paper—or rather, papers. I don’t know how to explain my creative process. I am sure you have heard a lot on social media, and I admire those who can. I just prefer for it to be as simple and uncomplicated as possible sometimes. And it’s not that I don’t wish to give writing advice—no, it’s not that. It’s just that it’s better to keep it simple. No methods. No nothing. No planning “how” or “what to write.” Just imagining with your head and figure it out later within the piece of work you may be writing or thinking. Ideas. Thoughts. Blurbs. A sentence. It does not matter as long as you take joy in the things you write and express.

Yours,

SMS