June: Four Things I Learned

6/28/25 1:56AM - 2:17AM

This week I’ve learned four things, while in church, inside of my home’s walls, and reading. With the many juggles of life and steps I’ve been taking this week I’ve sat back thought, even relaxed myself. The things I have learned I want to share with you but as something you may give the title of controversial, I call it thought sharing but something in my heart is telling me to speak up about this and I am listening, are you?

The first thing I learned: Talk to Anyone and Everyone no matter if you’re an introvert (like me) or extrovert. If you are the shy one, the one that nobody knows, always give them a kind simile and close the conversation with, “What’s your favorite color?” Maybe you will find yourself having a pleasant conversation with them by the end of it.  Shake hands and ask, “How are you?” or “Are you enjoying your time here?” simple baby steps can lead to a big conversation, believe me when I say that nobody is going to scream at you and tell you are the horrible person ever, just be kind, the feeling of that is special.

It’s when you don’t know a person at all to knowing them and getting their phone number and Chinese takeout next time and meet their friend group and slow start growing with them and get all hyped up, sing along, go to parks together, and spend quality friendships with them. I till this day have not found a exact pinpointed group of people you wish you had, and I know I’m not the only one who seems solidary and alone. As a matter of fact, I love being alone, it’s calming, it’s thoughtful, and eventful, but it makes you see the things around you and the little moments maybe that a large friend group doesn’t perceive. BUT I’m still encouraging to go out there and introduce yourself maybe even a little briefly to a person you don’t know, an adult, a teacher, the lonely kid in the classroom turning that into something amazing.

The second thing I’ve learned: Embrace who you truly are, even if that makes you different. I’m not a speaker, a pastor, nor a preacher but in simple terms this week while I was at my church conference, I have learned that being different is ok. To have your own beliefs, to be set apart and not in the crowd but away from it is ok. It’s ok to be pushed away and being rejected because that shows you how valuable you are inside, because maybe what I call God, and you call the Universe is there for us. This pastor worded this so neatly he said, “But believing in God isn’t having one foot in and other one out, you have to embrace God fully and have both of your feet in.” It’s about believing and taking accountability for you, to always be you and not behind a mask to try to please someone else. It’s not only to have a how again this pastor said, “It’s not about only having the name of the scripture in your bio and then doing something else that doesn’t align with that scripture and what you halfway believe.”

And all through this conference I could ask myself, “So It’s ok to me for express my love for God publicly even if I’m a different type of author, is that what you’re saying?” And this is just not talked enough in communities like Book Tok, Bookstagram, Author Tok, and many more things. Authors do not express what they believe in or maybe they just don’t believe in anything and that is totally fine! I’m not here to get all religious, and so technical about explaining because it’s not about religion but a growing relationship with whatever of whomever you believe in.

This includes me in my relationship with God which I am working on it. I suppose I do not know how people look at religion in the billions and billions of people in the world and that is alright for me. What can be viewed as bad can be also viewed for good, and vice versa. Again, I’m talking about my experience this week and how I felt.

The Third thing I learned: Don’t waste your time doing things that don’t bring you good. This one is a supremely bad thing I am so so so bad at doing! Dopamine hits and you begin to lose track of time when we all are victims of binge scrolling, saying “I’m only playing for an hour” that soon becomes a full all nightery only to feel like a zombie when the sun arrives, I have fallen victim to that too playing to much Call of Duty or Wuthering Waves maybe even a little bit of a cozy coffee game, and watching too many YouTube shorts or videos on “How to Write your Characters like this…” that end up confusing you as a writer, and don’t really help you at all.

Instead of focusing on reading, writing, and doing fun things (like me), I get on my phone and lose track of time, in which I am thinking of deleting Instagram for a while (the app). Or having restrictions and ground rules because it has become a very bad habit for me that I need a break ASAP. Again, I’m not sure since I have things to do but I just nee to take control and say, “No More is No more” I can use that to go hit the reps at the gym and play Shakira in the background or The Is the Gospel loud and proud, Queen works perfectly fine for the burning agony when lifting those weights!!

I’m just losing valuable time at the end of the day and that does not align with my goals at all! So, I better start fixing those plot holes for real and get in agreement with myself and commit to this I can’t waste any more time. As this applies for something as an electronic device this also applies to people and bad influences and substances. This applies to the people who are rude towards you, but you aren’t rude towards them. This applies for the bad influences of people pressuring you and you doing it to fit in and end up regretting, not noticing, or too senseless to care about your life. This applies to society too. Comparing yourself to others because at one point it’s inevitable and as a teen I know a lot of teens compare themselves to celebrities, idols, singers, and even authors and that’s when doubt comes in and we must face that fear and doubt because if we don’t face it we don’t become stronger, we stay stuck. It brings your harm and unhealthy obsession.

The Fourth thing I’ve learned from this week is: The World is waiting for ME.  Sounds childish, this statement, say it out loud, really move your mouth and say it. Say it two times and you maybe not believe this words, but they go to your subconscious brain without thinking once or twice and your conscious brain is telling you, “Steve what are you saying?” two minds in one brain of opposite worlds to eachother. But if you want to be delulu (abbreviation of delusional for those older out there) you have to be crazy! Not crazy but believe in that crazy dream that seems impossible to those around of and letting that feel you with passion. You want to be an astronaut traveling all the planets?” GO FOR IT! “You want to go and sing and be a popstar?” Go FOR IT! Don’t let the uncertainties and the comfort of not being outside your comfort couch stop you from those bold things you want. No dream is big, no dream is impossible, no dream is small, all of that counts and makes you for you. Look at other people to learn from them and how they got there, be better than those of whatever it is you want to accomplish.

But, you can have the question of, “But I don’t know what I want to do?” or “My parents have expectations, and I have to go a certain path to please them.” I understand that and in my most sincere humble with respect opinion, ils sont tous des déchets (translation, they are all trash). Don’t let them brainwash into thinking you want to be a doctor and then halfway through the very expensive tutoring and semester you don’t want to be a doctor and that they forced you to grow up discontent! Don’t have that imposter syndrome too where you overthink every single step you take (I’m victim to this too).

Be a musician like Bach, be as crazy as Socrates, as dramatic as Shakespeare, as creative as Van Gough! Go be yourself and not let the lime of the sweet life get the best of you. Another assertive question you may be asking “And my emotions?” well, emotions are something that makes us human and they are all part of our personalities, you can’t shut them away forever and avoid confrontation in a bubble fighting with yourself. I would like to end this on a very high note by saying that you are capable of anything, you are amazing, never stop and let your light shine bright not for others but for yourself.

Yours with many blessings,

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